Last Thanksgiving I made a particularly strong effort to be pay attention to what I’m thankful for in my life and I found it to be such a great exercise that I’ve continued to practice this daily. It’s actually a form of personal meditation and I find that the more I realize I’m thankful for, the more thankful I become.
Believe it or not I’m not speaking ironically, those of you that know me outside of this blog and in the real world may be suggesting that I am speaking ironically but rest assured I’m being deadly serious. And no, it’s not because my latest case finished up recently and for the first time in years I have a few weeks to myself.
No. I’ve actually found a way to be thankful daily. What I’m realizing is that being thankful can involve so many things. I don’t only need to be thankful for the time I get to spend with my family or for the fact that I am live in a great country. I can actually be thankful for the very beauty of life.
I suppose many of you are wondering where this new found sense of self came from. To be honest, I was informed by a friend of the existence of someone called Eckhart Tolle who wrote the book The Power Of Now, and maybe some of you have heard of it. This man is German and previously was so depressed he wanted to kill himself until one day, it says in his book, that the extreme amount of suffering he experienced one night pushed him to consider the very self that he couldn’t bare to live with. Who was it, he asked. If he can’t live with himself then there must be something else that he isn’t living with when of course there is actually only one of us that exists.
This lead to his entire theory on the ego and it’s dominance on the human psych. I was immensely interested in his studies almost immediately due to my fascination in criminology and how the mind of psychopath works. Perhaps these people are not just the existence of themselves but the very ego itself – the inability to feel any type of remorse. is this what someone who entirely lives through their ego is like? I mean, all the signs are there. They’re often accepting of of any type of criticism towards themselves. Maybe this is an example of the ego in it’s prime, and the very resistance of criticism is a way for the ego to prevent it’s own self destruction. This is too scary for me to think about because I know far too many people like this (and some quite personally, too).
Another book I was thoroughly interested in recently was The Celestine Prophesy. This book is an older but a goodie and until recently I hadn’t been able to pick up a copy of the book. I didn’t have the time. I also couldn’t gauge the right amount of interest to finish reading it. I finally accomplished this and I’m so glad I did. The story goes through a series of insights as discovered in a manuscript. The book then follows the main characters journey to Peru to discover the insights.
These books really found their way into my life in the right time. It’s funny actually that The Celestine Prophesy talks about coincidences – call me crazy but I have found this to be true. It’s just too coincidental that this book should fall into my hands the very time I need it most. Plus, I have someone in my life I was thinking about very recently. I couldn’t shake the thought of them and I had utterly no idea why they kept crossing my mind – I hadn’t seen this person in over 5 years. Who they are is not important. When I was on my way to the store I actually bumped into them without warning, even stranger they they said they’d been thinking of me recently too!
I don’t want to sound like I’m getting crazy on my readers – those of you that know me well enough will know that is simply not my style. However I do think it’s important to consider the beauty of our lives and just how we are living them. Is there a deeper meaning in things? Who knows. All I can do is be thankful for the moment. Be thankful for today, because as Eckhart Tolle says, this moment is the only thing we ever truly have.